Direction

We would really appreciate your prayers this week as we fervently seek the Lord's wisdom on what we are supposed to do for our next adoption. Seven months after losing our sweet little girl, it feels like we are still in a tailspin, with no end in sight. We're not sure if we are supposed to keep waiting on Taiwan or move on to another country. We've talked about S. Korea, the Phillippeans and Haiti, but the two of us have not been at peace with any of them (and with two of the countries, we would possibly be pursing a waiting child). 

Ugh...I hate this. I never thought we would be here. I don't know why we are in this place. And it's been hard. Really hard. Almost two years after deciding to start on a second adoption and we are no closer than we were then. I truly believe God led us to Noella. And I'm coming to grips with the fact that there is a reason for why we lost her. What that reason is right now, I don't know though. What I'm probably struggling with the most is, why did we even find her to begin with, just to lose her in the end? 

But, I am seeing God's blessing in our lives while we wait. And I am thankful for that. I'm thankful for the friends who continue to encourage us and the little girl we have at home that brings us laughter every day. 

So, we will continue to wait and see...

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